backhoe wrote:
February, 2003... I was going to post the scan but photobucket is down for maintenance. If it comes back before I finish this I'll include it.
Where I'm trying to take you is “things change, and they vary.”

We are all so ephemeral here on this Brave New World of the
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I thought that surely I had scanned and saved that image you see... it went from wherever it was in Emily's possessions to the eggcrate where I remembered seeing it last, to a box labeled “Memories of my Emily...”
Her bridal veil sits on the top of those things... it's white, and no, neither one of us were “virgins” when we swore those vows before a Priest & a Pastor & God & everybody else...
I'd been married before and Emily was, err, a “musician...” Church, Temple, Symphony... as she put it, “the only difference between us and Rock N' Rollers ( Regarding sex, drug use, likker, and general sleeze... ) is we dress better... “
I loved you, Miss Emily... I can't put it any plainer than that. You had a thousand faults ( Or a million- when you add them up on a poor Fallen Angel, who's counting? They are always... “Numerous- Yea, even too numerous to mention...” A hattip top my Dad, who told me the story so many years ago... )
Well, you really are “gone, forever, to the Sea...'
Or maybe you flew to the Sun, or mayhap you are just a pile of ashes that I buried in my back yard beside the remains of those dogs & birds that were our little children.
And all that is a dead, dead world falling away behind me as I speed to the Sun myself.
It's been a week since I sprung Miss MaryAnn from jail and I finally heard back from her- an email last night that she “was just tired,” and a phone call after I had rolled over on my good ear and gone to sleep.
I surely hate being old and half deaf & blind- I used to be so big & fast & strong... but what are you going to do? Somehow you rode the roller-coaster of life this far-- you had the good, you had the bad. You... “saw the elephant” a few times and you still really cannot describe it... you wrote some words here- and took some pictures there. You had what passes in this small corner of the World for fame & fortune & celebrity... a long time ago your name was something to swear by... or swear at.
It was nice while it lasted.. Then, it went away. And that is alright, too. I may be old & deaf & blind but as far as I can tell I will get to stand at the dawn for one more day... I hurt, I can't move like I used to- but even that is of no great matter.
I'm still standing. That is.... sufficient.
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