Theresa wrote:I returned this evening to read find and read the posts when Roy first returned. I am compelled after reading to comment on God’s goodness and the power of prayer. I clearly recall in the beginning of Roy’s illness, as the days turned into months thinking with despair that God was not going to answer your prayers of recovery. I knew in my heart He was going to answer them —somehow —but there were despondence days when I did not believe Roy would recover.
A few days ago I came across an abortion poll and my immediate response was to post it here just as in days of old. The best I can describe it was a like a conditioned response. Posting the poll and following it nudged me to come over here to see if any progress was made for Roy. I was awestruck that Roy himself was had posted. I knew he had sent a pm to others but this interaction and witness from his own words to his recovery progress was more than I expected.
In hindsight I see the gentle hand of God nudging my stubborn heart to come here and witness a miracle from all your prayers.
Nothing is impossible for God...and His ways are not our ways...the Wisdom of God is foolishness to men and the foolishness of men is Wisdom to God. I can be so foolish sometimes but God remains ever faithful.
I give thanks Almighty God for these and all Thy blessings. I ask for the grace to be placed in each of our hearts that we remember with clarity the gift you have allowed us to witness and Roy to experience- through the power of love and prayer.
Goodnight everyone goodnight Roy.
There is none perfect no not one. There are several here who I find to be rare personnas of existence, of both genders, and you are one of those.
It was Henri-Frederic Amiel who said "Women wish to be loved without a why or a wherefore; not because they are pretty, or good, or well bred, or graceful, or intelligent, BUT BECAUSE THEY ARE THEMSELVES.
Even though you possess those attributes of which he speaks, and so much more, you should realize that Amiel had to have known women of class when he wrote that. The inference is clear, and application to those he was speaking of, was and is a category that you easily fit.
In spite of the many things about you which are in and of themselves, more than sufficient unto excellence to provide entry for you into that special category of woman that embidies all that is good, pure, and noble, I am inclined to agree that you do have some deficiencies.
However, in the saying, you ignite the glow of who and what you really are. Really Theresa, similarly, the most valuable Maseratti in existence which is priceless, like you, still has defeiciencies, but in the face of all thst such a magnificent entity is, the little speck of dust on the rear wheel, tread side, is actually unworthy of mention, and would require a microscope to identify.
This then brings us back to you, defeiciencies detract not one iota from the excellence of the woman, not because they do not exist, but because they are so insignificant to the reality of who and what you are.
Is this flattery? Nay, and the proof of that is because I am stating what so many here think, but which I am the one bold enough to say. while well understanding the worries and fears of others who would censor their feelings, I am as you know contrarily inclined. To be as I am, can cause others to apply inaccurate and malicious things to one, but in the behavioral mode that most occupy, which fronts caution and hesitancy for fear of being misunderstood and condemned, the tragedy is that many who would benefit, from the stating of the raw truth, do not receive the encouragement, cherishment, affection and love that would refresh their spirit, soothe their soul, and lift them up.
So I offer this to you, and though you say nothing, I do know that as a meal proferred to one who would benefit from nourishment, it will be taken to a secret place and consumed, giving benefit, where it is needed.
In my entire life I have never had any who the meal was prepared for, refuse it, throw it back at me, or check the food for suspected implanted poisons. That is because the individuals have never failed to see the spirit and clear purpose in which it was given, and although others of malignant bent did on some occasion, twist and blaspheme an act of good into an act in their twisted minds of ulterior motives. That is not my problem, nor is their superficiality my responsibility.
The biggest thing you should realize, and which oyu are well aware of, is that there are three types of love, erotic, platonic, and unconditional. You can take to the bank, the reality that anyone who knows you has only the "agape" type of unconditional love for one such as you. You are too pure and decent for any but the most filthy to have any capacity for the "erotic" application towards you. You are too deep for any to have the mere platonic typeset for you, having left behind those two, the only qualitative and applicable love that you merit is the last, which embodies the cherishment and love towards others, in this case you, of the mind, soul and spirit, for all time, regardless of imperfections.
Feel loved, and rest assured that in the vagueries of this existence, despite hurt, grief, pain, and shortcoming, that you merit the best in love as you merit in all other things.
I often think of Abel Stevens when I speak such messages in person to others of your gender, and he summed up my thoughts thus in his words, "A woman always feels herself complimented by love though it may be from a man incapable of winning her heart or perhaps even her esteem". Abel apparently, like myself, made this observation no doubt as I did many years ago, and in talking up to many women, I feel that like Abel, the goal is not to secure any to one, or seek advantage, but to deliver a message calculated to communicate the truth of the sublimity of those who I fear, are unaware to realize the vastness, and sublimity of who and what they are.
Thoughts and truths do no good to anyone, lest spoken, and since we are our own worst enemies, too many succumb to the demon of self condemnation, that ever lurks in every existence. Add to that the iniquity and cruelty of malicious others who slash and seek to tear down good people, and we have a potent combination of damage wreaked from within and damage imposed from without that tear asunder the spirit of innocent people whose only sin was and is being decent, honorable and true.
You Theresa have been hurt, and like many others will be hurt again...and again...and agian by thoughtless, cruel and profligatic types whose goal in their own misery and jeaousy is to "steal, kill, and destroy".
I trust in the recesses of your mind, you will place this simple observation of mine, testifying to the reality of who and what you are, and use it as a defense mechanism and antidote to the poison arrows that malignant people have, and will again, pierce you with.
You do well know that "faith, hope and charity" are powerful entities, but you also know that the "greatest of these is love". You are love Theresa, and as much as that is, you are much loved by those who can sense the magniture of your spirit. Were the reality and magnitude of your love but a determination of how much you were entitled to receive, I would need an army of gifted writers, shored up by the angelic throngs of heaven, and the sky itself as a parchment, to even begin to recognize who and what you are.
No matter what comes your way, that is distressing, painful and hurtful, you are much loved, and your hope abides not only in the Epitome of that love, but also on those here below granted the daunting task of communicating the excellency of it towards you.
Happiness to you, in the measure of what you deserve. You are indeed special, and I have struggled to encompass just how much so, and still in the doing, considering what you deserve, I have failed miserably.
..and I precious gal, having concluded my introduction, will now answer your post with a few simple words, and they are I thank Almighty God for one such as you, and I bless the day you were ever born, knowing full well that the world did not, and does not, deserve you. For sure, I know of a certainty that"He" is in complete agreement.